Part 1 by Miya Mallard — Analysis & Translation

Original Poem

Part 1 By: Miya Mallard Date: 4/21/2026 ----- Dear, my dearest one My heart is now blooming So I make a lie to myself Saying that you're a danger in My life. But heart disapprove as it cries. obedient was like a crime. have a mine of your own. Yet my voice is owned by the others I can't lie. I'm still obedient in my prime. So, just it from my eyes. I don't mind breaking my heart. It's not the first time. I don't mind falling asleep. To avoid every single time. So, I shall sleep. As Ignore it all within me. I expected nothing less anyway. Just like me I fade away. My heart must hate you Or fear you so I can erase. The fact you got in that place. I give my soul just for it break. That was my biggest mistake. I'll break up the heart. As you only shattered it And I'll make it bleed hard. Burning it to flames. So, it feel that way For you or anybody. But some parts just won't change. So, I'll just except my fate. I bloomed so a broken crate. ------- Part 2 By: Miya Mallard Date: 4/21/2026 ----- I want sunshine. All of the sunshine to be mine. Only mine. So then a burning heart could breathe with me. I want the moonlight. Just a moon type. One on the finger tip. So, bare my cold mind. As I held a switch to my kite. Little darling, How do you feel? An endless burning cry. Lord, please, Lord Is it really still? Please is it not a lie? God my heart burns As I can't cry. A dramatic scene tonight. Please, oh, please! just let them in. So, I can hold on for the last time. Lord, my Lord Please, I don't understand. Was it like this all the time? All lies... His eyes... I must have read it wrong. What a shame. Oh my.... --------- Part 3 By: Miya Mallard Date: 4/21/2026 ----- Even when the world isn't mine. Even when my heart harden in time. I will always be the same. As I use to everyday. So, I Iet it burn. Let it win. As I feel that heat on my skin. But it's not bad anymore. So, what was it all for? I know you find me weird. I do too. I'm just glad that you don't hate me like I do. I raised a bullet so high and strong. As it hits straight for the goal. Call me a little off center. I don't know know what's the matter. I can't think for myself. Like a doll. My heart is just broken. As I fall asleep. It's been like that, since the day I wanted help and plead. I don't lay on my face And daydreaming about us. For, what was it all for? If you find me weird. Then that's a score.... I'm not weird in a good way. At least that's what they said. That you think that I'm weird But not in a good way. Okay.... I know I'm strange. Something I can't change, but one thing that I will do. Is slowly break away from you........ I love you so much it hurts. I put my love in the dirt. So, called me Your harness! Take a look at my scars mis... Nothing can be better than this. If space is what you want. Then that's what I will give. If you want distance, then so will it be. I must respect you honestly. Think of it as an apology. For thinking that the likes of you would ever find me loveable too.

Translation (English)

Dear, my closest one My heart is now growing So I lie to myself Saying you're a danger in my life. But my heart disagrees as it cries. Being obedient felt like a crime. Think for yourself. Yet others control my voice I can't lie. I'm still obedient in my prime. So, just take it from my eyes. I don't mind breaking my heart. It's not the first time. I don't mind falling asleep. To avoid every single time. So, I will sleep. Ignoring everything inside me. I expected nothing more anyway. Just like me, I fade away. My heart must hate you Or fear you so I can erase. The fact you got in that place. I gave my soul just for it to break. That was my biggest mistake. I'll break my heart. As you only shattered it And I'll make it bleed hard. Burning it to flames. So, it feels that way For you or anyone. But some parts just won't change. So, I'll just accept my fate. I bloomed like a broken crate. I want sunshine. All the sunshine to be mine. Only mine. So then a burning heart could breathe with me. I want the moonlight. Just a moon type. One on the fingertip. So, bare my cold mind. As I held a switch to my kite. Little darling, How do you feel? An endless burning cry. Lord, please, Lord Is it really still? Please is it not a lie? God my heart burns As I can't cry. A dramatic scene tonight. Please, oh, please! just let them in. So, I can hold on for the last time. Lord, my Lord Please, I don't understand. Was it like this all the time? All lies... His eyes... I must have read it wrong. What a shame. Oh my.... Even when the world isn't mine. Even when my heart hardens over time. I will always be the same. As I used to every day. So, I let it burn. Let it win. As I feel that heat on my skin. But it's not bad anymore. So, what was it all for? I know you find me odd. I do too. I'm just glad that you don't hate me like I do. I raised a bullet so high and strong. As it hits straight for the goal. Call me a little off center. I don't know what's the matter. I can't think for myself. Like a doll. My heart is just broken. As I fall asleep. It's been like that, since the day I wanted help and pleaded. I don't lay on my face And daydream about us. For, what was it all for? If you find me odd. Then that's a score.... I'm not odd in a good way. At least that's what they said. That you think that I'm odd But not in a good way. Okay.... I know I'm strange. Something I can't change, but one thing that I will do. Is slowly break away from you........ I love you so much it hurts. I put my love in the dirt. So, call me Your harness! Take a look at my scars miss... Nothing can be better than this. If space is what you want. Then that's what I will give. If you want distance, then so will it be. I must respect you honestly. Think of it as an apology. For thinking that someone like you would ever find me lovable too.

About the Poet

Miya Mallard (Contemporary)

Miya Mallard is a contemporary poet whose work explores themes of love, heartbreak, and self-discovery. Her poetry often delves into personal emotions and the complexities of relationships.

Historical Context

Literary Form: Free verse
When Written: April 21, 2026
Background: The poem seems to reflect personal emotions and experiences related to love and heartbreak. It explores the internal conflict and emotional turmoil of the speaker, possibly drawing from the poet's own experiences or observations.

Detailed Explanation

This poem by Miya Mallard is a deeply introspective exploration of love, heartbreak, and self-identity. The speaker grapples with the pain of unrequited love and the internal conflict between their emotions and rational thoughts. The poem is divided into three parts, each delving into different facets of the speaker's emotional journey. In the first part, the speaker expresses the struggle of trying to convince themselves that their beloved is a danger, despite their heart's protest. The theme of obedience and the loss of personal voice is prominent, highlighting the speaker's internal battle. The second part shifts to a desire for light and warmth, symbolized by the sun and moon, reflecting the speaker's yearning for emotional clarity and relief. The imagery of a burning heart and dramatic pleas to a higher power underscore the intensity of the speaker's emotional turmoil. The final part reveals a sense of resignation and acceptance of their situation. The speaker acknowledges their perceived strangeness and the pain of loving someone who may not reciprocate their feelings. Despite this, there is a resolve to respect the beloved's wishes for space and distance, indicating a mature acceptance of reality. The poem employs vivid imagery, metaphor, and repetition to convey the depth of the speaker's emotions, making it a poignant reflection on the complexities of love and self-discovery.

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Word Dictionary

Word	Meaning	Translation	Transliteration
dearest	most loved	the person you love the most	dee-uh-rest
blooming	flourishing	starting to grow or develop	bloo-ming
disapprove	not agree	to not agree with something	dis-uh-proov
obedient	compliant	ready to follow orders	uh-bee-dee-uhnt
prime	best time	the most active or successful time	praim
fade	disappear	to slowly disappear	fayd
erase	remove	to completely remove	ih-rays
shattered	broken	broken into pieces	shat-erd
flames	fire	burning fire	flaymz
sunshine	sunlight	light from the sun	sun-shyn
moonlight	light from the moon	light from the moon	moon-lyt
bare	expose	to show or reveal	bair
dramatic	theatrical	very exciting or emotional	druh-mat-ik
plead	beg	to ask or beg earnestly	pleed
strange	unusual	not usual or common	strayn-j
harness	control	to use or control	hahr-nis
scars	marks	marks left after a wound heals	skahrz
apology	sorry	saying sorry	uh-pol-uh-jee
lovable	adorable	easy to love or like	luv-uh-buhl